Day 2

So I'll be honest, I skipped Day 1's exercise, to spend ten minutes or more sitting in a natural setting, feeling your connection to the earth.  I worked from 12 until 6 pm at Massage Envy, and then going straight over to Justin's house thinking the band was going to rehearse and play at an open mic night.  Turns out that we didn't play at all and I completely forgot about reading the first day.  Now that we've actually started, I realize that I need to make time for it.  Lately it's been all work, band, and going out, making very little time just for me.  Going through the process of learning Wicca will force me to do just that, since I can't do any self-discovery without making any time for the self!

I can remember previous times that I've spent laying on the ground, simply feeling the earth.  I could feel the grass all around and underneath, almost cradling me, and a pulse deep in ground, like a heart beating.  I've always felt a strong connection to the earth, at peace when laying in the backyard or walking through a forest.  Living in the city has always seemed stressful, trying to get from one place to the next.  I would rather live in the country, doing everything for myself, but I've become so accustomed to living in the city, where everything is pretty ready-made and ready for me to buy.  It would be such a stretch to go from one to the other, and I dream of finding a happy medium.  My weakness lies in my dependence on such creature comforts, on someone else making my food and clothes, and one thing I can do to strengthen myself is to start cooking more from scratch and attempting to make clothes with my sewing machine (which is currently gathering dust in the corner of my bedroom).

Now on to Day 2!